Sunday, November 11, 2012

The Prison I’m In


I’ve noticed lately that many people with co morbid disorders with anxiety especially have a fear of leaving home or sometimes even leaving whatever room they are comfortable in. I have this problem. My room is my prison. I am disabled with bipolar disorder and have severe anxiety. If it wasn’t for doctor and therapist appointments I wouldn’t leave the house or even my room. My room is my comfort zone.  
That’s not completely true. I go outside to smoke. I somehow manage to smoke a pack a day out there. But, I quit all the drugs and stopped drinking. Smoking is my last addiction and I can’t seem to find the want to quit stage.

I also manage to occasionally go to Half Price Books and find psychology books. I’m looking for the answer to fix my disorder. I know if there really was an answer the professionals that I see would tell me. But that doesn’t keep me from constantly looking. It’s all in vain but I feel like if I wasn’t looking then I would be giving up and I will never give up. If you have the answer then please let us all know.  That's it for this post, please share your thoughts.

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